Believe it or not...

Believe it or not; I'm alive! LOL. It has been WAY to long since my last post. So much to catch up on, yet I almost just want to start fresh.

Here's the scoop. I did what I've said time and time again I wouldn't do. When I was not facing success on my weight loss journey I avoided the blog. It's embarassing for me to really talk about my struggles. I know I shouldn't be but I am. I've had a rough couple of months (weight loss wise because I had a GREAT holiday season) and I've gained more than I care to share at this point. It's hard when you see what you've worked so hard to achieve slip through your fingers. Some of it has been through no fault of my own and a lot of it very much my fault.

As much as I feel that I know what I'm doing sometimes I feel as if I know nothing. There's nothing worse than doing something that you know VERY well you shouldn't be doing. They say that ignorance is bliss and maybe sometimes it might be. I, however have the tools and knowledge and don't always take advantage of it. As you know I've struggled with my hormone levels and it has slowed down my weight loss and I think I might've have just fallen into a bit of a "funk." Not to mention so did all the deliciousness of the holidays. My knee has also been bothering me a lot which slowed me down. Luckily, I got it checked out and with treatment it will get better and I am already starting to feel better.

Yesterday I found out that my thyroid levels are off as well. I was put on medication and I hope that this is the missing piece of the puzzle that will get me to lose weight "normally." I'm excited for the New Year and all that it brings with it. I am very optimistic and I'm back to having the attitude that nothing will get me down and nothing will get in the way of my hard work.

Aside from all my setbacks I still had a very successful year. I have never had a new year's resolution last as long as it has and obstacles or not I will continue to strive for success. Today a little over a year later I physically see the changes I've made and I feel like a different person. I have grown and learned so much about myself and I continue to learn about myself. I can't believe the strength and the will power I had (have) inside of me just waiting to get out. When I compare what I was able to do at Boot Camp when I first started a year ago to today it's amazing. Here's a preview of what I've been up to over the last year.

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Boot Camp has truly been a blessing. It's changed my life forever. From the self discoveries, to the knowledge gained to the friendships made. Words will never truly express the gratitude for all the pain, sweat, tears, and smiles that HDFitPro provided and will continue to provide. If nothing else Boot Camp has provided the best of friends a girl can ever ask for. 

There's so much I've wanted to share over the past couple of months and just never wrote about it. Sometimes as I was cooking I pictured myself having a "Carrie Bradshaw" moment where I saw myself at my lap top typing away and providing you with the most insightful and witty words that will make you totally relate to me.

I don't ever want to abandon my blog for as long as I have. I hope that I can continue to inspire as you have said that I have. I thank you all for all the kind words and emails I have received. I still can't imagine how someone like me can motivate and inspire change but I am very grateful and humbled by it.

I thank God for the abundance of blessings that 2010 brought to me. I pray that 2011 will bring just as many. I know I am late but what are your hopes for 2011?

(I apologize if this post seems as if I'm rambling, it's getting late and I'm a bit drowsy already. LOL)

Until next time, I leave you with the infamous words of Carrie Bradshaw, "As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going.”