January 26, 2011

What did you do Wednesdays?!

I am such a big fan of the show The Biggest Loser. I am a fan for so many reasons, however I think the main reason is for the way that the contestants motivate me. Hearing about their stories and everything they've faced in life and having a front row seat as they "work out" their obstacles and regain their lives is so inspirational. It is such a great show and in a world where all you hear about are greed, violence, and sex it is so refreshing to have a show like this available. Before the show even starts I am already engaged and captivated by their theme song. The words are amazing! Check them out HERE. So in honor of The Biggest Loser and for the countless contestants that have motivated me on my journey I want to institute "What did you do Wednesdays?!"

Here are the directions:

1. Watch The Biggest Loser Tuesday nights.

2. Post comments on my blog/FaceBook about what you did on Wednesday (or over the last week) that has made you proud of yourself.

It could be ONE thing or a number of things.

It is easy to be proud of others however we often neglect to take a minute and think about what we've done to make ourselves proud.

I hope to keep this up every week. Next week I'll try to start the post earlier but I did just think about it :)

Today the things I did that made me proud of myself are:

1. I continued to keep the attitude of being grateful for my job and I was rewarding for it.

2. I completed two boot camp work outs.

3. I kept my promise to blog more often.

So I ask you now...What have you done today to make you feel proud?

Tell me what you want, what you really really want!

In my friend's blog (go and check it out here) she said "I am tired of getting dressed, looking in the mirror and saying, "Well, I guess this is as good as it's going to get today."  I want to be able to throw on any outfit that I pick out from the closet, and I want to wear it confidently!" That has really stuck to me. I do that ALL the time, and guess what? It SUCKS! I don't want to do that anymore. Her post inspired me to list reasons why I'm working on losing weight.

1. I want the person inside me to reflect on the outside.
                   -It doesn't right now.
2. I want to have children
                   -I really really want to be a Mom.
3. I want to feel confident when walking into a room with my head held high.
                   -I don't, I actually panic when I have to meet new people.
4. I want to be able to not dread getting invited to the beach or a pool party.
                   -The worst words EVER "pool party".
5. I want to be a role model to my family and friends.
                   -I want to show them it’s possible to achieve things that seem impossible.
6. I want to be proud of the person I see in the mirror.
                   -This has improved but there's still work to do.
7. I want to honor the body God intended me to have.
                   -Our bodies are meant to be treated like a temple and unfortunately I've failed at that.
8. I want to enjoy shopping for clothes.
                   -Outside of the PLUS section.
9. I want to have a healthy future and lifestyle.
                   -My parents had health issues and I'm trying to change my future.
10. I want to see in myself what everyone else see's in me now.
                   -I hope that one day I will.

I'm working on achieving these goals and becoming the person I was meant to be. The more I learn about myself the more I hope I can inspire change in others in sharing that knowledge. I look forward to the day where I have accomplished my goals. I look forward to the day I can lead community work outs and show others the wealth of knowledge I gained and be living proof that it CAN be done and with hard work ANYTHING is possible.

Are you on a weight loss journey also? If so, what is it that you want out of it?

Side Note: I started this post on Monday. It was on Monday that I found out I lost 5lbs in a week. I am very excited about it and I am praying and hoping that my thyroid medication is working and finally weight loss will be become a little less challenging. Please pray for me that this is the case.

January 20, 2011

This is one bugg I love!

Have you ever used a bodybugg? I am a HUGE fan of The Biggest Loser and I've wanted a bodybugg since I started watching the show. Unfortunately, they are not exactly...budget friendly shall we say? However, recently my fellow boot camper and partner for boot camp's Biggest Winner Ultimately Thinner Contest let me borrow hers. I have been using it for the past two weeks and let me tell you it is VERY addicting. After a workout I can not wait to go home and plug it in to see what my burn was. It is such a beneficial tool to have when you are working towards your weight loss goals. The software allows you to track the calories of the foods you eat as well as what you burn.

Although I'm not keeping it forever, I have a good idea of what my body does and how hard I need to work in order to lose weight. My caloric burn has varied between 1300-2300 calories. Erin let me borrow it for an extra week to see if now that I'm on my thryoid medication the number of calories I burn increase, thus maybe solving the mystery of my struggles with the scale?? I sure hope so! ::cross your fingers::

I can't wait to see how much more I can burn this week :)

January 18, 2011

Believe it or not...

Believe it or not; I'm alive! LOL. It has been WAY to long since my last post. So much to catch up on, yet I almost just want to start fresh.

Here's the scoop. I did what I've said time and time again I wouldn't do. When I was not facing success on my weight loss journey I avoided the blog. It's embarassing for me to really talk about my struggles. I know I shouldn't be but I am. I've had a rough couple of months (weight loss wise because I had a GREAT holiday season) and I've gained more than I care to share at this point. It's hard when you see what you've worked so hard to achieve slip through your fingers. Some of it has been through no fault of my own and a lot of it very much my fault.

As much as I feel that I know what I'm doing sometimes I feel as if I know nothing. There's nothing worse than doing something that you know VERY well you shouldn't be doing. They say that ignorance is bliss and maybe sometimes it might be. I, however have the tools and knowledge and don't always take advantage of it. As you know I've struggled with my hormone levels and it has slowed down my weight loss and I think I might've have just fallen into a bit of a "funk." Not to mention so did all the deliciousness of the holidays. My knee has also been bothering me a lot which slowed me down. Luckily, I got it checked out and with treatment it will get better and I am already starting to feel better.

Yesterday I found out that my thyroid levels are off as well. I was put on medication and I hope that this is the missing piece of the puzzle that will get me to lose weight "normally." I'm excited for the New Year and all that it brings with it. I am very optimistic and I'm back to having the attitude that nothing will get me down and nothing will get in the way of my hard work.

Aside from all my setbacks I still had a very successful year. I have never had a new year's resolution last as long as it has and obstacles or not I will continue to strive for success. Today a little over a year later I physically see the changes I've made and I feel like a different person. I have grown and learned so much about myself and I continue to learn about myself. I can't believe the strength and the will power I had (have) inside of me just waiting to get out. When I compare what I was able to do at Boot Camp when I first started a year ago to today it's amazing. Here's a preview of what I've been up to over the last year.

Boot Camp has truly been a blessing. It's changed my life forever. From the self discoveries, to the knowledge gained to the friendships made. Words will never truly express the gratitude for all the pain, sweat, tears, and smiles that HDFitPro provided and will continue to provide. If nothing else Boot Camp has provided the best of friends a girl can ever ask for. 

There's so much I've wanted to share over the past couple of months and just never wrote about it. Sometimes as I was cooking I pictured myself having a "Carrie Bradshaw" moment where I saw myself at my lap top typing away and providing you with the most insightful and witty words that will make you totally relate to me.

I don't ever want to abandon my blog for as long as I have. I hope that I can continue to inspire as you have said that I have. I thank you all for all the kind words and emails I have received. I still can't imagine how someone like me can motivate and inspire change but I am very grateful and humbled by it.

I thank God for the abundance of blessings that 2010 brought to me. I pray that 2011 will bring just as many. I know I am late but what are your hopes for 2011?

(I apologize if this post seems as if I'm rambling, it's getting late and I'm a bit drowsy already. LOL)

Until next time, I leave you with the infamous words of Carrie Bradshaw, "As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going.