It's not always a celebration...

It has been about a month since my last post; and what a month it has been! Manny and I celebrated our third wedding anniversary, had doctor appointments, work has been hectic (I got my title insurance agent license), and... I have not lost a pound...not one. I weigh today what I did when I last posted. My weight has actually fluctuated from 249-256 the entire month without making any changes. That is part of the reason why I haven't blogged. It's so hard to post something that's not an accomplishment, or to try to be motivating when I'm frustrated. However, I did promise to share my struggles and my successes, I've learned it's not always a celebration.

Although, I haven't made any changes my body has. I have been working with Dr. Fernandez a natural family planning specialist since the beginning of the year when I discovered I had very low levels of progesterone. Although it has improved slightly it recently went back down, a reason the scale hasn't exactly moved. As a result my hormone medication got increased. On a side note, when I went to Dr. Fernandez's office they asked me to take a new patient picture because "you look nothing like this anymore," that was pretty awesome :)

The following day I had an appointment with my Optomologist for a check up on a condition I developed exactly a year before; pseudotumor cerebri. Thankfully because of the lifestyle changes I've made I was declared CURED from my condition! Whoo!!

Yet, the scale remains the same. It is very frustrating. I eat right, I do intense work outs at Boot Camp, I do everything right but the scale remains the same. I can't tell you how terrible it's made me feel. The only times I've seen a little hope is for the 10 days I'm on my hormone. Which even that messes with my mind..."I must not be doing enough.." It is a vicious cycle.

One thing is different. Very different. Me. Nery, six months ago would've quit at the first signs of struggles; she would've quit long time ago. Six months ago I wouldn't have embraced the "failures" I've faced. Six months ago if the scale didn't reflect the work I was doing, I would've walked away. However, here I am writing about it instead. I haven't quit so far and I never will. The scale hasn't changed but I have.

It may not always be a celebration but it's always a blessing. I thank God for the strength He's given me to face these challenges. I thank God for the people He's put in my life this year to help me along the way and I thank God for opening my eyes and finally letting me see what I'm capable of.

Nothing will stop me from reaching my goals. As I've been told by my dear friend/trainer Hilarie; I've already met my goal, now we just have to wait for my body to catch up.


Now to the fun part! Pictures!!! Here are some snap shots of what's been going on :)

5K #2 for me. Getting ready for #3 this weekend. :)

 

Naples Trip!

The summer! Not always easy, but I must admit its gotten easier to be proud of the way I look.

Our 3rd Wedding Anniversary in Disney